没有妈妈的日子：第七天（第二篇）

The language of technology...

Bits and bytes, that is what we use to communicate today.
From messages and instant messages on our mobile phones to social networking sites (SNS) we actually use bits and bytes, the common language that is understood by all our devices.

Bits and bytes changed the way how human interact with each other? Indeed true.
This is year 2012. Do we still see someone writes a letter? Do we still use the phone at home to call our friends or loved ones?
My answer to the first question, no I didn't see anyone nor know anyone who still writes a letter. My answer to the second question, somehow yes, there are still family members that call me through their house phones.

I live in the bits and bytes era. Technology changed and effected much on the way human interacts.

Here are some of my experiences.
Let me start from my personal experiences; I love using this instant messaging application or app for mobile, 'Whatsapp'. You just need to connect to an Internet connection, using wifi or data on mobile and you can interact with your contacts that use the app.
'Whatsapp' is a channel of communicating those gossips with my friends. As I written before on 'gossiping on instant messaging', people use this method or channel to bond with one another or keep in touch with friends. To be honest, there are PLENTY of gossiping (backstabbing mostly) and heart-to-heart conversations with my friends (Not Twitter nor Facebook friends, keep in mind).
When I need to find someone to talk or chat, I'll go to my few closest 'Whatsapp' friends.

Other than using instant messagers, one can try Facebook message or Twitter's Direct Message (DM) if you want to talk about something that you might not want to make public. Please bear in mind, as a SNS user, be abide by certain rules such as don't keep updating your (silly) statuses on FB or upload images of you behaving like a nutcase, sorry I need to rephrase my word... behaving immaturely.
Bear in mind also, certain conversations should not be made public. I'd learned my lessons few days ago on Twitter. Do not ever talk about utmost intimate topic on a public timeline, with an opposite gender.


Tweets posted on my Twitter account, take it with a sarcastic approach.
Yes. I do love to bant and rant. I Tweet stuffs that I find to be sarcastically funny. Honestly, if one can't take sarcasm, my advice would be stop reading my Tweets. Leave it if you are a 'faint hearted' and doesn't 'digest' sarcasm...
Condemn me if you want...


Writer's note: Earlier today, I Tweeted "To some point, I feel like Ana Steele, minus those stuffs. Wtf! Cc @dayapattinson", mentioning this friend of mine. Yes. I met and talked to her few days ago and told her my 'confused feelings'. I DM-ed her later on why I feel like Ana Steele. For those who read '50 Shades' trilogy, you knew well who is Ana Steele and those 'stuffs' I was referring. As I mentioned above, DM and Facebook message are meant for discussing personal issues or topics. So I won't disclose what the conversation was about.

Writer's note 2: There was this thought of mine that I think can be useful, somehow "I believe time will confirm or deny all confusions". I'm currently in a confused state. I'm uncertain of my feelings and actions. There are too many questions that I seek for the answers. I think only time can tell... Confirm or deny all my questions.

没有妈妈的日子：第七天

Attaining all issues... 

There are too many things to settle, especially legal... 

I find there are too much bureaucracy in applying for a bank account. Besides bureaucracy, technical errors also occurred. 

The legal age of 21 is the age where one can vote, drink (legally duh!), and apply for individual's bank account. Take note of this point. 

It has been a week since my mother passed away. 

This is a time, post-funeral, of settling the stuffs, legally and professionally, that my mother had left behind. And yes, indirectly I am her heir or successor.

Prior to becoming her successor, many things have to be attained. 

Until this moment, her death certificate has not been issued. Without that, we can't cancel her bank accounts, claim her insurance policy, and cancel her name, replacing mine in all her business activities. 

Today's trip to bank does not produce any result. 

No death certificate, can't apply a new account.

No death certificate, can't change her name to mine. 

No death certificate, you can't do anything basically.

Yes. I do feel helpless because I couldn't solve the problem. 

Everything required a 'black and white' and needs to adhere to laws. 

Writer's note: I'll have a day off for Christmas tomorrow before resuming to the chaotic routine on Boxing Day. And one more thing, I need to get my third IC. There is something wrong with the current one. Good though, I actually hate the picture of me when I was 19 years old.

没有妈妈的日子：第五天

Those Unexplained Feelings...

It's the first time I'm writing, without really having a content...

I'm 'lost' emotionally. No, I wasn't referring to coping to my mother's departure. I'm coping that fairly well.
I'm referring to other issue.

It's better sometimes to not be transparent. Yes. Too much information will exposed the thing.
It was just earlier today that I confided to this ex-school mate and a girlfriend of mine about the 'unexplained feeling'. This will be a little secret between us...

Thought it was a past feeling... However it has became a present feeling.

Once I mentioned this thing to Sow Lei Wei almost a year back... I didn't tell the truth exactly. I wanted her to guess (and keep guessing)...

I'd made the 'move'. It's not really a patriarch society anymore... Feminist ideology is widely used nowadays. True?

Writer's note: I believe it takes time, to defy or confirm.

没有妈妈的日子：第二天

A Life Without Her...

I am writing this post with grieve.
My mother left us as in 5.47am yesterday, 18th December 2012. My father and grandmother was at her side until her last breathe. I came with my uncle and aunt from home to the hospital but it was too late. She had left us, forever...

I'd accepted the reality that she had left. Life has to go on no matter what.

Tears flowed non-stop for the past three days since she was admitted.

I believed that she wouldn't want to see me in sorrow after she left.
I'll always be her cheerful daughter and friend as she know I would be.
I'm independent and strong as she know I would be.
Nothing can pull me down as she know I would be.


Writer's note: I appreciate every valuable moments I had with her. I didn't have any regrets of not spending enough time with her. I'm always a person who stays and sticks at home a lot and I'm with her most of the time.
Thank you for raising me to what I am today. You're the one I love and will treasure forever.

Writer's note 2: I'm typing this as bittersweet flows from my eyes.

没有大舅的日子：第1272天

Finals then movie trip then girls-get-together outing (in planning) and lastly Macau...

I try to make this as short as possible...
Basically the title of this blog post has gave out what I wanted to say.

1. Finals
Currently doing my finals. This is my most hectic semester, ever! Things seems not to end.

2. Movie trip
Was planned back in October (as I recall) with a friend of mine, 'Adik'. Initially we planned to go for 'Skyfall'. However we couldn't seem to find the suitable time. Until now... Coincidently, our finals end on the same day! And me and some of our friends are going for the movie.

3. Girls-get-together outing
Whatsapp-ed my ex-schoolmate, Ju Yi to tell her about this planned outing. Honestly, I haven't seen her since F6! I miss her! Hopefully this outing can work out! Feels like celebrating her post-birthday.

4. Macau
Yes!!! My passport can be in use after 4 years! If not the RM 300 is put to a waste. Anxious to be abroad since my Taiwan trip four years ago... Will Twitpic, upload on Facebook and blog about the trip once I return to Malaysia. Do I sound\ like those tour bloggers? Ha, ha, ha!


Signing off for this week.
Until next week.


Writer's note: Hopefully I can score in my finals. Lack of confidence as usual... That's me.