没有妈妈的日子：第549天

WHAT is love...?


First and foremost, DEEPEST apologies for the absence. Life has been treating me 'too well', and I'm always here and there chasing headlines.



It's an off day for me, and I took this free time to reflect on something.

Love

And what does love meant to me.

The me one year ago, thinking the pathway to soul-searching had opened up for me.
Unfortunately, reality proved me wrong. And I was hit badly by the darkest and ugliest of human's nature.
I do not want love again. I detest the opposite gender, until the point I had given up on a particular group (read: race) because of their sheer ignorance and patriarch mindset.
That was the end.


Love,
Gave me hope in terms of despair and at the same time, opened me up to the dark side of human.





What I am now?
I enjoy the my life at the fullest. Despite the up and downs in life-work-happenings, I do life up to what I want.
I don't emphasise on searching on another person. No. Reality strikes when you put hope and trust to the one you think is right for you.
I take one step at a time. Echoes The Beatles' 'Let It Be...' I don't pressure nor force myself into someone. I will just enjoy their company (which actually what I am doing now).

I can easily strike up conversations with strangers.
The post question after conversations, would we ever get together again the same way as we did?
Probable answers; yes, no, maybe, and how faith takes us.



Writers' note: I always have pleasant times when I get along with the someone I recently met in real life. Conversations would never end.

Writer's note 2: Love exists. No matter how much you gave up on humanity. Keep the faith in love!

没有妈妈的日子：第397天

Ultimate Resolution: Live Your Life!

"If you have plans for the year, you would act according to it. That was how Robert Merton’s ‘self-fulfilling prophecy’ explains it. You have a concept about the scenario (in this case, the New Year’s resolution), therefore your behaviours and decisions are made according to your perceived concept. A ‘self-fulfilling prophecy’ is powerful in realising the most impossible dreams."


"Unexpected occurrence will get in your way, thus disrupting your plan. Like it for not, these impromptu events tend to mess up whatever has been pre-planned."


"Live a life, according to you. Yes. You. Why should you be restrained by all these rules? You are supposed to enjoy your life to the fullest."

"But do you really enjoy the process to achieving them if you are being too restricted by your plan?"

Full article on LoyarBurok: http://www.loyarburok.com/2014/01/14/ultimate-resolution-live-life/ 

没有妈妈的日子：第357天

Hipster and be fun of it!

In love with these so-called hipster cafes around Klang Valley. Frankly I had been to a few and eager to discover more!

Ever since, I don't go to those mainstream coffee (well, you can guess which I am addressing).

Here are two that I really love.

1. Whisk Outpost, One Utama Shopping Centre.

Discovered this place couple of years ago. Guess this was the earliest start for the hipster cafe trend.

Inside the shop. Added the filter effect from Vintique and VSCO to make them hipster-like.

Coffee and sweet delicacies. The Cold Brew Coffee is the 'bomb'! Recommend it for coffee lovers. And yes, plenty of macarons there too. Cakes are not refrigerated, which is the first time I seen it.

Hipster-like design. A great place to chill and relax for the weekends. 

2. Garage 51, PJS 11/9, Bandar Sunway.

Read blog reviews and searched pictures from this place in Instagram before finally to try out yesterday night. 

Here is my thought: Pleasant setting, situated in a less pleasant environment. The food and drinks are awesome!

  

Was crowded when I reached at around 8 p.m. 

Piccolo Latte. Real coffee for real lovers. 

I had realised I became caffeine-immuned these days. I can take strong coffees and few hours later, sleep like a baby. Ironic?

I don't know what was this exactly. A combination between bread and meat, I think. But it's delicious and filling! 

Awesomely good fries! Best I tasted so far.

Read about this drink on different blogs. It is Coffee Société's signature drink, which has coffee, milk and Nutella in it. Sound promising? I should try it for my next visit then!

That's it for now.
I'll post food and places' pictures on my Instagram account, whenever I go food hunt.



Let the pictures speak.




Writer's note: I am currently in my holidays now. Six to seven months to go before graduation ceremony. 

Writer's note 2: I need to find a job in the writing or journalism field. Or else, what I had learned throughout my degree will be in the waste bin. 

没有妈妈的日子：第349天

Words of encouragement...

Never underestimated these words.

I heard negative feedbacks thrown to me. In fact, when I recalled, the negative feedbacks are more than positive ones. Yes, could it be more ironic?

I concluded that most people around formed a certain degree of dislike towards me (Er... OK). I admit, I am not the good person that pleases people (others formed liking towards someone when he or she does or speaks things that are set by our norms as 'good', which is subjective by the way).
I am against the norms' pattern. Thus, individuals who live according to the norms find me unusual, leading hostility towards me.


If that so... (as I write) would my life would be miserable? Plenty of negativities around me.


No. Not at all. 


Despite what others see if in an unfavourable way, I continued to be what I am. There is (and never be) a reason to please others, doing and speaking about things they like. What is the significance?
You'll lose what you are, yourself.

I ignored negative feedbacks. Be "whatever... it's up to you to hate me, and it's up to me to throw you off my life!"
Freedom of speech. Yes. And choice.


Couple of days ago while chatting online with my friend in UK, I opened up regarding the topic I got hatred. I assumed to the fact that I will NEVER find a Chinese guy as they (in my assumptions) does not fancy someone provoking as me.
My friend was stunned. And told me those guys are missing out a nice girl, an open minded one.

I was touched.
After all these negative remarks on me, finally I see a hope and light, a friend who sees a person as they are, themselves.

Throughout the conversation, it shed a light on who should I find for the significant one (Yeah, truly gave up on Chinese guys).

The quote sums up everything. Be persistent.

I think I know where to go finding (actually)...





Writer's note: In the future, I will write topics that are meaningful and optimistic. There should be no reasons to dwell in the useless and depressing things in life.

没有妈妈的日子：第322天（第二篇）

Phone calls, at different distance.

Phone calls,
When was the last time you picked up the phone to have a long quality conversation with someone, in the age where instant messaging conquers our lives?

Think on.


I am hardly. I loathed phone calls since the other person over the phone (always) implies certain personal ideologies and influence into my life. I considered myself liberal, that highly treasure personal liberty and freedom in life. My philosophy is, "man is born with the freedom given". Every individual has the right to seek for all the happiness that leads to self-fulfilling purposes.
BUT... once people try to 'stripped' the freedom away, in this scenario, implying persuasion on how I should behave and do in life, sorry, I need to 'cut' the line.

My hatred towards phone calls came to an end. I think I had found a listener and speaker (listener and speaker in my view, does not equate in one sentence. The former is passive, the latter is active), who is extremely humourous, coming out with daily life jokes all the time. A person who (I perceived) is another liberalist as me.
An unrelated topic before I continue. "Never trust a stranger on the cyber world". Every schoolchildren have heard this warning again and again. I am not excluded. Being vigilante on the cyber world, you will never know people on the cyber world might come up with an intention of causing harm on your life.
I defied this rule. I knew a person over the cyber world, and after strings of conversations I gave my number to this person. We shared topics in common and (in all my justifications) built an amount of trust with one another. I knew what the person is doing for life, in return the person knows too. Took about three to four months before we exchanged numbers.
No. I was not harmed nor cheated.


Since then, we became close cyber friends.



Back to the phone call topic.
Two Internet users who became cyber friends. And spoke to each other few times over the phone, talking and sharing life encounters and bantering about the way of life.
Unbelievably, I have never felt so open in any conversations throughout my life, even with close girl friends. Yes, I do laugh a lot because the lame way the person teases me.
(Finally) Found another sarcastic-by-character human being on Earth that I can truly be the sarcastic me, without provoking and getting hated for what I am.

We did not meet each other despite all!

Finding someone who are able to click on with you and you feel free expressing your thoughts and real-self is hard.
Once found, treasure and maintain this relationship.



Writer's note: I deeply wish to set up a meeting with this close cyber friend. Just... for the sake feeling his solid presence.

Writer's note 2: Oh... I mentioned about provoking and getting hated earlier. An encounter, which, highly impacted my perception and decision on looking for the other half in my life.

Writer's note 3: Will soon write about being provoking and hatred. Warning: be writing in a feminist style.